When it is destined to happen it does!

My mum was just discharged from the hospital. I had burnt the night lamp's oil taking care of my mum, the only person on this planet earth along with my dad for whom I can sacrifice my life, without a second thought. She was operated for twisted ovarian cyst, major surgery they say. My relatives were at my place to visit my mum. All the house hold chores were on me and my sisters. This was the most crucial time in my office, Performance appraisal cycle! Yeah, the only time of the year we wait for. I was on leave for a week as I was with mum in the hospital. I was in the worst of the states. Physically, mentally, emotionally, financially.

All this happened just a week before we planned to meet. We. Me and my sweetest boy friend. This was the most awaited event of my life. It took him almost a year and a lot of triggering to finally conclude our daily fights. 

We crossed roads on a dating application. He was from Delhi. The very first time we called each other, he was in metro on his way back home at 10 o'clock at night. And he thought I was too from Delhi. He asked me thrice where I was right then. At last with a sigh he gulped the fact that I am from Nagpur. 1065 km away from him. That distance was maintained until he agreed to meet me, on 19th September 2016, the day I would have written in gold.

But. There always have been a but from the start when it comes to we both. Yeah, but destiny has something else in store for us. From everything going smooth as silk, my life turned out to a bed of thorns, that too just a week before we were about to meet. We had to drop the plan. That is what it was for me until that Friday night when I came back from office and received a text from him " Call me ASAP".

I called him the next moment I saw his text. Can we meet this Monday? was the question he asked. These were the only words I was craving for from so long. But not today. Not when my life is so messed up. I wanted to meet him in all the best versions of me after all we were meeting for the very first time, I wanted to make this the best day of his life. Even after knowing the fact that this is the worst time to meet him, my mouth was not ready to utter 'NO' not even once. I dodged his question a couple of times, tried to convince him to postpone the plan to a next possible date. But, I was presented by only two options either we will meet this Monday, or next month which he said wasn't certain.

The answer was quit clear. Oh, how much I curse myself for understanding him to such an extent. Saying NO was equal to another quarter's wait and not a month. A risk this big was not a thing I could have sustained. Not after waiting for so long. Though I said yes multiple times, he knew I wasn't sure. He asked me to think and let him know. So, after an hours constant hammering I concluded on a definite yes and finally we met on 19th September 2016.  

Destiny it's seriously a thing!

The reason I am here

Yes, I always wanted to write a blog but that 'never got a chance to' still exists, not all of a sudden I am here. This Sunday morning I broke up with my boyfriend, yeah only I thought he was my BF but he wasn't. More about it later. So cutting short the blues, taking some time off the track to invest in what I always wanted to do, I am here.

We all at one point find ourselves caged in an environment which we feel never lets us do what we really want to. But believe me no one in this world is busy enough to not fulfill his/her innate desire. Desire to open our wings and fly, to sing like a maniac, to dance like a 3 year old kid. Yes, these words will not be enough to ignite that internal being, to spark you to jump and go without giving a second thought, it will always be that one incidence, that one person, that one day which will change the way you see the world and most importantly the way you deal with your life.

I had come across that one incidence, that one day, and that one person whom I loved more than anyone else, for whom I could do anything just to bring a smile to his face, to see him happy at any cost. This is the cost I am paying to see him happy. Set him free. Yes, not easy at all. But just the thought of him being happy without me gives me strength to move on. Moving on! Moving on with the most amazing experiences, most mesmerizing feelings, breath taking memories of him. He will always be a part of me, in my prays, in my dreams.

Clinging to someone, something, some place will yield you nothing. Move on! Move to a world you have never seen before by changing your perspective, experiences you have never had just because you feel its awkward and embarrassing. Live your life like this is your last day on earth.

Hello World:P

Hi Readers,

This is my first blog at bloggers. It feels amazing to be here, I always wanted to write a blog but never got a chance to. Better late than never. Wanted to be honest at least somewhere so not disclosing my identity.

This anonymous has many ups and downs, goods and bads which will be shared. Stay tuned to know about me. The incidences happened in my life, the way I reacted (being a Sanguine :P). No one wants to be judged but being judged by people you don't know and the people who don't know you is kinda interesting.

Looking forward for your inputs.

With love,
XYZ :D